What Now Lord?

Dear God,

I'm numb. I'm lost inside. I can't find my way out. It's dark, cold and lonely. I feel an evil presence around me. I'm scared but have no where safe to go. There's no light to guide me.

I hear noises. Footsteps. Breathing. He's getting closer. I freeze and stop breathing. The noises stop. They move off in another direction. I am safe for now.

I begin to move again. But I am fooled. He was waiting for me. All along his evil was waiting for me.

It was a night I shall never remember, a night I shall never forget. One of many, one of few. One of tears and pain, one of silence and disassociation.

I shall never speak of it, I shall never give voice to them. Words cannot describe the experience, no adjective is suitable.

Amy