Walk On

Dear God,

Our CR group began discussing starting our 4th steps (Taking a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves). I sat in the group knowing how many years it's been since I've done one. The new revelations, memories, relationships - all of it. I really tried to think hard about the responses I was giving to our step study book. I felt I was being honest knowing it's the only way to grow in my relationship with you and with others.

I haven't done my homework. I have a list of names: Gail, Sandy, JoAnn, Avis, Maureen, Pat, Rita, Jo, and Bonnie. I'm not sure what to do. I guess I'll bring the list to Jeff then he, Jill and I can do the board.

I had another seizure last night. I'm afraid to go to sleep. I'm very tired. I have a good size blue bruise where the vein burst. My body aches, my mind is a little numb so it's not quite thinking straight.

I'm scared again. I might need to cry out tonight. I don't want to cut. It feels that way inside. One foot in front of the other. Walk On.

Love Amy